It’s been more than a week since my birthday has passed, and I honestly haven’t had the time and energy to say thank you to all of you.

So, thank you! 😘

I’ve read all of your heartfelt prayers and well wishes, and because of those, I feel that my days have not been spent in vain, after all. Even if life has morphed into all things crazy and tedious this year– family, school, work, volunteer work, life; crazy.

When my birthday song played at month end, it was all a flash, a blinding light, and then a blur. I don’t remember how fast the days turned into another and went on and on and on and on.

And then now I find myself in a strange, new footing. And I don’t even know what things to tell that same self for its own sake. 🫠

I know, it’s been overwhelming.

When people ask me how I’ve been feeling, I tell them I don’t know because I actually really don’t know. 😩 Maybe these are new feelings in my repertoire of life feelings, or maybe everything’s been a fast and constantly changing loop of feelings that I cannot seem to catch any of them by name.

I guess it doesn’t always have to make sense.

Three five. They tell me I don’t look like it. Well heck, I don’t feel like it. Haha. I think that I may have gotten stuck somewhere between 27 and 29, that timeless age of youth, and my heart has not aged a day from there. 🥹

Three five. I’ve prayed a many long prayers of trust and surrender these past months, and I’ve tried to not resist the hands that move the universe. Maybe that, has saved me from a lot of other feelings. 😅

Three five. I guess feelings don’t always have to already have names to be true.

I’ll call this lot my HBD feelings. 🥳

Thank you, universe! Sending lots of light, and love, and sunflowers. 🌻🌻🌻