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“So happy for you!”
She mouthed a couple of times,
And said aloud in her head.

Trying to convince herself that she actually was.

Well she was, she insisted to herself.
Save for that drowning feeling,
And that stream that her eyes were becoming now.
And that turbulence inside her somewhere, everywhere.

And that fervent wish that she actually was —-

“Happy for you!”
She mouthed again,
This time so much slower,
And struggling.

She had to try a little harder.